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being as how i usually have struggles starting off my scribbles, so i decided to ease into it with a Little Richard today.

So, since i now currently have more than one way to get out my thoughts, i've been neglecting this blog
not for lack of thoughts, but simply because i distanced from the whole "deep as hell inner-sanctum
ish for a while"

I mean hell, the inmates could only run the asylum but for so long anyway right?
well, now that the warden has stepped down and our normal shit has commenced again
its time to delve back into the more importante situations.

For the record, if you're reading this, then you have special privileges.
not to mention, that means i think VERY highly of you.
From this point on, you're now entering the danger zone.

*Turns up kenny loggins*

Well, you see; i was in this strange situation with this broad from cali, lets just call her caliwhorenia, being as thats what i've been referring to her as for a while now anyway. Well we were a chatting and laughing it up with this other couple, back about three years ago, interestingly enough there was underlying feelings that went undiscovered until recently.

Life shole is funny. Me, Siyah, Lauren & "Hayden" used to sit on the phone all through all times of the night chattin and chillin and laughin at dumb shit, interestingly enough im now realizing the only two people who didnt have a problem with it were me and Siyah.
Funny, especially considering how Caliwhorenia stated she hated how me and her would always chat, i chuckled kinda hard when i thought about that. So ... heres where the dilemma pops into play
Siyah and I both had quiet crushes on each other at the time, but we were both also involved in relationships when we started talking
what made that good was we developed a friendship that most people would think is kinda stupid, unless you know A) My dynamic B)Her dynamic & C) how much of a loving asshole i can actually be. Its always good to be friends first eh? Yeh.
so, for the sake of condensing the blog; 2.5 years pass from the last time we spoke, not exactly sure what happened nor why there was a gap in our conversations but needless to say i stumbled back across her path again, and things seamlessly picked up where they were (kinda) from before. So, we get to chattin and im not one to push certain aspects; in fact im kinda lazy for the most part in matters like that, however; the topic came up and the discussion was abound. the answers were prominent and the smiles were there, and here; folks is where this dilemma is.
Frank, me; put his emotions in a safe, in a lockbox, in a secure room 4miles under ground after these few recent events that went down, so; yes i wouldnt mind being around someone who has the same sentiments, carefully building a relationship as well as strengthening a relationship/friendship that is already in place currently. There aint nothing wrong with this girl, hell i'd even wait to see if it was worth while. i mean everything seems in place, head on straight, personality is good, sheen crazy, and she can hold her own when frank switches on "loveable asshole" mode. Strange ... as i write this i dont see much wrong, hell we both agree on one thing, the parents must be met; but the fact that i wouldnt mind building a relationship with her makes me kinda wonder/worry. eh ... i guess in the long run i'll figure things out, but for right now; i'll just play the shadows and keep my little crush under wraps well ... we all know its there, i just wont act on it until the go ahead has been given.