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being as how i usually have struggles starting off my scribbles, so i decided to ease into it with a Little Richard today.

So, since i now currently have more than one way to get out my thoughts, i've been neglecting this blog
not for lack of thoughts, but simply because i distanced from the whole "deep as hell inner-sanctum
ish for a while"

I mean hell, the inmates could only run the asylum but for so long anyway right?
well, now that the warden has stepped down and our normal shit has commenced again
its time to delve back into the more importante situations.

For the record, if you're reading this, then you have special privileges.
not to mention, that means i think VERY highly of you.
From this point on, you're now entering the danger zone.

*Turns up kenny loggins*

Well, you see; i was in this strange situation with this broad from cali, lets just call her caliwhorenia, being as thats what i've been referring to her as for a while now anyway. Well we were a chatting and laughing it up with this other couple, back about three years ago, interestingly enough there was underlying feelings that went undiscovered until recently.

Life shole is funny. Me, Siyah, Lauren & "Hayden" used to sit on the phone all through all times of the night chattin and chillin and laughin at dumb shit, interestingly enough im now realizing the only two people who didnt have a problem with it were me and Siyah.
Funny, especially considering how Caliwhorenia stated she hated how me and her would always chat, i chuckled kinda hard when i thought about that. So ... heres where the dilemma pops into play
Siyah and I both had quiet crushes on each other at the time, but we were both also involved in relationships when we started talking
what made that good was we developed a friendship that most people would think is kinda stupid, unless you know A) My dynamic B)Her dynamic & C) how much of a loving asshole i can actually be. Its always good to be friends first eh? Yeh.
so, for the sake of condensing the blog; 2.5 years pass from the last time we spoke, not exactly sure what happened nor why there was a gap in our conversations but needless to say i stumbled back across her path again, and things seamlessly picked up where they were (kinda) from before. So, we get to chattin and im not one to push certain aspects; in fact im kinda lazy for the most part in matters like that, however; the topic came up and the discussion was abound. the answers were prominent and the smiles were there, and here; folks is where this dilemma is.
Frank, me; put his emotions in a safe, in a lockbox, in a secure room 4miles under ground after these few recent events that went down, so; yes i wouldnt mind being around someone who has the same sentiments, carefully building a relationship as well as strengthening a relationship/friendship that is already in place currently. There aint nothing wrong with this girl, hell i'd even wait to see if it was worth while. i mean everything seems in place, head on straight, personality is good, sheen crazy, and she can hold her own when frank switches on "loveable asshole" mode. Strange ... as i write this i dont see much wrong, hell we both agree on one thing, the parents must be met; but the fact that i wouldnt mind building a relationship with her makes me kinda wonder/worry. eh ... i guess in the long run i'll figure things out, but for right now; i'll just play the shadows and keep my little crush under wraps well ... we all know its there, i just wont act on it until the go ahead has been given.

The Same Ol' Song and Dance pt. 1

Well well well; look whose back to the blog-o-sphere. I have alot to say in my veritable 6 month hiatus. Thats cool; i lead quite possibly the most uneventful eventful life in the world anyway. Its pretty fuckin awesome that you can read this; but this one, and subsequently the one after(probably just going to be one of those mega two-parters) are worth the "reading tea & glasses set-up" you'll learn some more things a few insights to what life actually is, oh and maybe even two ways to disguise your personality to your local boss/authority figure.

Call me Mysterio(No, not the Wrestler, but Quentin Beck, from Spider-Man) its a good time to just post this and prep everyone for the soopa-doopa-fly-ass-mega-long-two-bus-ride-type-till-the-batree-dies-on-my-phone blog. Aw, its cool; im sure if you're reading this now; you'll be mentioned =) and if you dont know by now, i'll leave the disclaimer: Nothing in my blogs is ever negative, take what you see here, and apply it to your general life and times. if i toss an insult; you know i do it because i love you. Twin Fingers like the cities. Time for Part one ...

Memorial Day

Well hello pretty little bloggling; how are you today? Im in a rather awesome mood. The sun is out; my babe is here with me on memorial day and out anniversary is on friday ... along with another event or two. what exactly will i do for it im not sure yet; i just know it'll be pretty cool.

So off of this mood thing im in; its starting to make sense on how this is supposed to play out. Situations of the weekend have fizzled and all but burnt out. which means more happiness and smiles for me. discussions have been had so it makes more sense for the both of us, more happiness. She stayed all five days for the weekend. im rather pleased about that. The fact that the continuity was there for us for the entire weekend, allows me to believe that there is hope for our relationship to last longer than just a summer fling. The words have been said between the two of us and the heart lines have been drawn, but now the fun can actually begin as to where the eight letters can actually be filled in with different actions to remember the meaning of those eight. pretty awesome. I know i know, im gushing; dont care thats why its my blog :) So, frank finally found something he wont mind fighting and actually going to jail for. A beauty with brains and the ability to check me when i aint doin right by her ... and i actually feel somewhat threatened (in the goodest of ways[yes i said goodest]!!) (<3)>

Blog's done. Enjoy your burnt dogs, chips and burgers. i know im going to enjoy mine.

TwoMonkeys&OneTree ... ahh yesssss!!!!

(Oh! and no purple shit floating around, Huzzah!)

I wonder ....

... if anybody actually does read this new and improved version and if i was to post it up would someone take the time to comment.

... if i'm destined to ever be 100% happy.

... if i will i ever find 'her'?

... can Frank ever keep something solid for longer than a month?

... will i ever grab ahold of what eludes me so much whether its that determination factor, or the general focus that i dont seem to have.

... can i climb out of this rut(?) that i seem to be in before i can realize how fast it pulls me down. and there's the one i want to write about.

What's really keeping me here in Delaware, what is really stopping me from just up and leaving the city/state/area to go and do what i want where i want when i want. is there anything really worth sticking around for? I am seriously getting sick and tired of having to have these thoughts, why cant there just be something that just makes me say: 'Fuck yeah dude! step your game up and stick around.' Yeah i got friends; and they are cool as shit; but as i write this i feel the sodium swell behind my iris. not to a large amount; but enough to make me stop and think. i really dont like getting this feeling, however apparently its going to keep rearing its ugly head. and no, i dont necessarily want to just up and go to florida. if anything i would probably disappear to like ... iowa or wyoming or something just to escape from e v e r y t h i n g surrounding my mind. i tried other ways to clear my head; they dont work. i tried not thinking about it, that didnt work. i even reset the musicologist section in my brain so that wouldn't effect me anymore, it helped until nine days after smokeout day. I am sure that i found something i want to stay and fight for; but i dont know how sure of a thing it may be.

Za, i know you're going to read this, simply because i am going to force you; but i really need an honest opinion about the situation. how would you feel if, hypothetically; chao said to you in the first month or so of yall dating "Well i do love you, and nothing is going to change that; but if Sherri was to ask me tomorrow to be with her; there is a possibility that i may leave you for her" How would you react, how do you feel about that?

yeah ... frank gets bombs dropped on him on a weekly basis; its all in the severity of the situation before i blog em. I would like a nice paragraph post on your thoughts ... im kinda perplexed as to what to exactly do. im not trying to surf the wave until we hit the beach; thats fucked up. ioneem like surfing like that. *tosses hands in the air* helpaniggaoutpleasethanks

Damn; this shit aint easy at all . .. ...

Nothing Fancy Yet

ok ok ok i have three blogs now. awesome job stay posted. you'll enjoy what you read/see/learn/absorb.